One of the ways people try to tell me I don't count is to tell me I am so articulate.
But the thing is, I am not. Not under most circumstances.
To make really good, clear language happen, I have to be responding to a stimulus. Most of my blog posts? There is something strong I am reacting to. I have to react to it. The words are there. I have to get them out. I cannot rest until I get them out.
And once they're gone, they're gone. They will never be as good as they were the first time, because the urgent burning need to make myself heard & understood, to express those words? The words don't get that they weren't heard. The words happened. They're gone.
Without something to react to, I'm actually not all that good at words. Give me something to feel passionate about, something that needs to be responded to, & enough things are firing that what comes out is good, maybe even beautiful. But without all that? Not so much. I'm not going to give you a full rundown of the things that are weird with how I word here, because no, but I assure you, my day to day nonprovoked language use is not anything like how I write.
I'm only articulate when the words are desperate to be heard & be free. Then & only then.